Are You an Exam Answer Sheet?
Really. The occasional 'serious' blog.
Do you keep marks of yourself?
I admit it. I did.
The feel was like "I'd not be 'happy' until I had sufficient marks in each category". I told myself that I should always show a serious face, and think of my current success as 'small', not worthy of respect.
Worse, it felt like I was not eligible to feel good because: "ONLY after I have......., I will be happy....sigh I can't be happy now". Failures looked very BIG, success looked small.
Living with 'rules of achievement' has been constant misery. 'Wanting' things had led to things going further away. 'Trying' to be nice to people only made you susceptible to abuse.
Even after leaving this behind, it's hard to undo the damage we have done in the past. Sometims people see you the same way. I realised we can do only that much. I just relaxed and accepted things are they were. I'm peaceful, that's what matters.
A big thanks to all the friends who stayed cheerful despite all the problems in their lives. You have been inspiring. Sometimes when we think a problem can 'only happen to us', it actually happens to many other people.
Do you keep marks of yourself?
I admit it. I did.
The feel was like "I'd not be 'happy' until I had sufficient marks in each category". I told myself that I should always show a serious face, and think of my current success as 'small', not worthy of respect.
Worse, it felt like I was not eligible to feel good because: "ONLY after I have......., I will be happy....sigh I can't be happy now". Failures looked very BIG, success looked small.
Living with 'rules of achievement' has been constant misery. 'Wanting' things had led to things going further away. 'Trying' to be nice to people only made you susceptible to abuse.
Even after leaving this behind, it's hard to undo the damage we have done in the past. Sometims people see you the same way. I realised we can do only that much. I just relaxed and accepted things are they were. I'm peaceful, that's what matters.
A big thanks to all the friends who stayed cheerful despite all the problems in their lives. You have been inspiring. Sometimes when we think a problem can 'only happen to us', it actually happens to many other people.
posted by SG @ 10:42 AM
3 Comments:
At 5:24 AM ,
Anonymous said...
Cheer up man. I once watched this show (hehe, I don't read, thin or think, exam or not) I think it was Nip and Tuck, where the doctor prayed that his son would be rich and successful like him, then 3 months into the pregnancy, he just wished that his son would be happy, then when his son was born, he just wanted him to be healthy. So you're healthy right?
At 1:04 AM ,
Anonymous said...
noob, of coz get low marks lah.
if not, the "noob" become no meaning...
At 1:12 AM ,
Anonymous said...
Wapiang....
You are giving yourself marks???!!!
WTF????
Life can't be analyzed on a piece of paper or with letters and numbers.
Happiness cannot be "rated".
Be happy with what u already have and think and see things positively.
Being too greedy will only spoil things that were suppose to be happy in your life.
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